The END

Here I am writing for the last time
I have thought of shutting down this blog
This is the 2nd time this blog will be abandon

I think I'm not a scary person
Or anything close to that
I just expect people who are around me 24/7
To just tell it to my face

Sorry my DEFENSIVE MECHANISM
Is very aggressive
I can't help myself
I try to improve it
But it just making things worst

I guess I learn my lesson again
To never expect anything
From anyone
Not even you're closest friend
Communication is irreversible

If by sometime
I mend my heart
And I'll be OK again
I'll come back to this blog

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Again new sem

This new sem open again
Does surprise me much eh
Just another one that comes after another one
You know the drill
Same as always
Catch ya guys later

Wedding......

This is a few wedding cake that I found online
It look so freaking good
Especially the cupcakes one
I wouldn't dare to take the pic and post it here
It makes me hungry
This wedding craze is because of my sis who is getting married this November
Love cake

Untitle?

Ok as expected my result is devastating
At least to me
Its not that I don't feel blessed with what I get
Its just that I think I deserve better
Since I put EFFORT in it

I guess its either I was born stupid
Or its because of the CURSING that I've said my whole 20 years of living
But to me I still think its the 1st theory
The stupid one
Jeez nyna what can you do right?
I was a firm believer that anyone who put EFFORT in what they do
Will get it back as much as the EFFORT that they put in
I guess I was wrong again & again

I am seriously am tired of putting EFFORT
But than again I can't go into the exam hall
And just do the freakin paper with blank head
I can't work like that
I don't know what more can I do
And will never know
Cuz Im tired of finding out

1st year Degree past

It's been year past
And should I think about it
The decision that I make taking this degree?
I guess it's a little to late?
I have another 2 years to go
Maybe I should just suck it up
And finish this off
Put an end to this re-thinking thingy nyna

To some people who don't have FUCKING brain
get lost from the face of the earth man
Seriously you are not worth the time

Blurness

For the past 5 papers that i've done
Im not confident with anyone of it
It seem to me that I just merely answer it
So that my paper won't be blank
Hell yeah
That's the ugly truth

Chance

Will it come?
Will I see it?.
Will I know its the chance that I should take?
How?.
What?.
Where?.
A lot of questions bugging me
But I can't say much
Because I will never know

Things in my mind

I have a lot of things in my mind that i want to say
To the people who don't know me
To people that miss understood me
To people that think they are so good and right
Sorry to burst your FUCKING bubble
But I will come after you
Cuz I ain't backing out
Or even talk nicely anymore
But im still trying to reason myself
From doing that
This FUCKING place > UNISEL
Is taking over me

TheEnd

Passion

"Don't give up in achieving your dreams and your passion. Dreams can come true. You can become like Big Bang."




Do you really want to be successful like Big Bang?
What is required is the passion to succeed and the belief that it is possible to achieve your dreams.


This is quotation from the news on WANT TO BE SUCCESSFUL LIKE BIG BANG?.
I want to be successful but not like big bang.
I want in my own way.
With what i love to do.
That is why to me PASSION is still the biggest thing that you can have in this world.
The ONE AND ONLY important thing.

TheEnd

Freedom to say or write?

I've been guesting it
Do we have the freedom to write whatever we want
or whatever that we want to say?
I think we do
But it depend on who the people is and what the context is
I've been trying really really hard lately
But people do make mistake
and i write OMFG in my facebook
I didn't have any conscious
Then a few sec/min after that my sis msg me
"Nyna mind your language,don't use OMFG"
Im a bit frustrated
but then
Im trying
Whatever la
Things happen

Welcome back WIFI

After a few FUCKING days without internet
Really fucked me up
Tension & stress like hell
On9 is the only way out
Each and every day is getting tired & frustrating
Just wish i can get away from all of this
Nothing much to say anymore besides that FINAL EXAM is near
and so is the MUET

...........

I AM NOT A SUPERHERO
OR EVEN SUPER HUMAN
I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE BRAIN
IF I WANT GOOD RESULT
I NEED TO PUT IN A LOT OF EFFORT MORE
RIGHT NOW
TIME IS RUNNING OUT
FOR ME TO STUDY
MY MIND AND BODY CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE
SO
THE ONLY I CAN DO IS CRY
YES I CRY
DON'T BE TOO SHOCK
BECAUSE I AM STILL A HUMAN
I CRY FOR LOTS OF THINGS
I CALLED UP MY SISTER
AND SHE SAID "THIS IS NOT YOU.STOP CRYING"
BUT I CAN'T
I THINK ITS BEEN LONG SINCE I LAST CRIED
HUMAN IS REALLY AMAZING
VERY AMAZING
THEY CAN BE A VERY VERY BEAUTIFUL PERSON
AND THEY CAN BE THE WORST PERSON EVER EXISTED
WE HAVE THE ADVANTAGES OF BRAIN
WHILE ANIMAL NOT
BUT WE KILL EACH OTHER
WITH ACTION OR WORDS
WE HAVE THE BRAIB TO THINK
BUT DID WE USED IT
I NO THAT I AM NO BETTER HUMAN OR PERSON
I AM STILL TRYING
NO MATTER HOW HARD I AM BEING NICE
PEOPLE STILL SEE JUST THE MISTAKE
I DON'T THINK I CAN DO ANYTHING WITH THAT
AS WE ARE HUMAN
HUMAN=THE MOST BEAUTIFUL+SAVAGE CREATURE

-THE END-

Should I care?.
Should I even give a SHIT?.
Should I even give a FUCK?.
Oh yeah! I do like to curse and if you have a FUCKING problem with my attitude or anything related with me.
Come to me straight.
Don't use the web to let me know.
Be a "man" la.

-THE END-

ASSIGMENT,TEST,MUET AND FINAL EXAM...

it falls on the same month..
and everything seems to be fallin apart..
i need to do it fast but something is blocking my brain from working..
its frustrating like hell..
just hope this semester is gonna over soon..
cuz i don't think i can handle anymore of it..

THE END

Bye2 APPLE WHITE

It's sad to let go of the thing that I love the most
But i know i have to do it
Its just that i can't use you now
But i know i will buy you again
My MacBook

ARGHHH!!!!!!
FRUSTRATING!!!
DISAPPOINTMENT!!!!!
FUCKER!!!!
WHAT ELSE THERE SO SAY?
NOTHING!!!

Warning>>>>>>>>>>>

Here’s something that i didn’t or never tell anyone else.Im afraid of losing my one and only thing thats special to me.I know some people might think its completely ridiculous and utterly does not make sense then im sorry you have to read this.No matter how i try to ignore it but i can’t.Im tired of the one who have to give up.Im tired of losing.Its my thing.I know im not the only one who likes them,there are thousand and thousand of people but i don’t care about the others.

4 reason why its special to me.1st reason its the one thing that helps my relationship with anis better and not awkward at all.2nd its the thing that open me up to music that i thought i never listen too.3rd it changes me inside and outside.i never thought i can change.i thought i’ll be like this forever but this special thing helps me to be a person who doesn’t care about anything else in the world.Things that im not supposed to care beside me,my friends and family.and the BIGGEST reason would be its the thing that helps me forget the things that i never ever would forget.it keeps me distracted and calms me down.the one and only thing that i have and you have to like the same thing.Do you understand how it feels to loose something that so FUCKING special to you to the one and only person that puts you there in that 1st place?.Try to put yourself in my FUCKING shoes dude.

I FUCKING hate this feeling,even if i say it to your FUCKING face i know it won’t make me feel any better because i will never completely forget about what you did.Im not the kind of person thats easily forgive and forget.I DON’T FUCKING FORGET and im still trying to forget about it.to tell you the truth,its always gonna be deep inside my head no matter what. im sorry if im a bad person who can’t forgive people making mistake,i give you warning for what about to come but you want that mistake right?.so i can if i can’t forgive you.i can’t tell you who to like or what but you need to understand and know that this thing is FUCKING special.not because of their looks or songs,they are the reason i am who i am now.all i have to say is that just don’t cross the FUCKING line.i can’t stand losing anything or anymore thats special to me.

He is more than that

He is more that everything

He is my frank iero

Korean version

I never him like i like TOP

But he is whom i care the most

What I am hurt me to the bottom of my everything?

Where I am now confuse me until Im lost?

Who I am makes me miss everything about me?

-The End-

Fuck Em All

Apple White+Epik High+cursing someone

Here is a middle finger for anyone that's been bugging my FUCKING head..

I can't understand how some people brain work..

How do they work??

Or they don't work at all..

Its really a mystery..

Seriously man..

Are they FUCKING idiot?.

Can't take it anymore!!!!

They can get the FUCK out of my FUCKING face..

Like i FUCKING give a FUCK about FUCKING anything..

I FUCKING don't!!!.

My not so new discovery..

EPIK HIGH..

I think epik high is the best hip hop/rapping group ever..

The way tablo rap is so very different than any other rapper in south korea..

Maybe because the american-ess in him..

His voice is so soothing and provoke something in you..

I've listen to their songs before but never really into them..

The song from their new album EPILOGUE title FOOL..

Make me gain interest in them..

The way the song just fall into place beautifully cannot be mistaken..

The song is perfect although its just the 2 of them in the song instead of 3..

Epik High is the baddest band..

Here is my apple white..

I got it at last..

The date is on 19 march..

I like the smell of new laptop..

Hahahaha..

In the picture is also my external hardisk>500G imation

and my MINI DIANA..

This is my prized things..

Still trying to figure out using MAC..

Its hard because it is different from window but i like>maybe& still trying..

Next sem my aim would be ipod classic..

My 1G samsung is jacked up..

I have too many songs to put..

And don't forget my MINI DIANA flash..

I still want it though..

Now im officially a MAC user..

-The End for now-

After Sometime

Welcome back SUCKER...
hahahahha...
xde bnyk benda pown nk ckp...
juz ermmm in a stress month rite now...
everything is not falling in the right place...
tp in the next few week maybe i'll be getting my APPLE WHITE...
can't FUCKING wait kot...
hahahahaha...
been craving for this like forever dude...
next would be IPOD CLASSIC....
i am very2 western....
i just realise that...
and 1more thing....
last night i can't fall asleep...
cuz i've been thinking about the test and all...
1 thing head my hit...
this degree im taking is more serious now than i though...
i actually have a lot of fucking book on TEACHING...
could it be real?...
AM IM DREAMING?...
xmungkin kan...
right then aku t'tido trus...
amazing what u'r mind can do....
till next time...
FUCKER

Haven't Posted Anything

As u can read in my title

Yup i havent posted anything in a while

Cuz i don't have much to say

Besides that i haven't a lot of complaint

Im re-taking my FUCKING Muet

And i have 7 subject this sem

New rules in University is that we TESL student have to wear formal to class everyday

AKA baju kurung

I have 2 very passionate leacturer who loves to teach so much it makes me sick

I hate evrything tis sem